Monday, January 12, 2009


This morning as my mind wandered (which it does a lot), I started thinking again about who I want to be and what I want to accomplish with my life. Ugh. That sounds so selfish. (It's not meant to). First and foremost, I want God's will. I want what God has for me. I want to be who He wants me to be. I want to live as He would have me live. I've got a long way to go in this area.

Today I've been thinking about patience. My devotion this morning was on patience and how good things are worth the wait. I want more patience in my life. I hesitate to say that because the only way to gain patience is to learn to wait for things. Right now the biggest area I want to learn patience in is with the boys. They try my patience daily and usually by 7 am I've had what I think is enough.

I don't think my boys are overly rambunctious, overly defiant, or overly anything. I think they are normal boys, and most of the time really good boys. I'm the one with the problem. I'm selfish with my time. I like things to go my way. As anyone with kids knows, your time is not your own and things rarely go as planned.

Mrs. Jo over at The King's Missus does posts on "Gentle Mothering". I can't tell you how refreshing it is to have a mother be so honest about the difficulties of parenting. As I scrolled through some of her posts today, one in particular caught my attention. It held this verse:

Colossians 3:12
And so, as those who have been chosen of God, holy and beloved, put on a heart of compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience;
Darn, there's that "P" word again. It's like I can't get away from it. In all honesty, I don't want to get away from it. I want to learn it. I think I need to put it on a 3 x 5 index card and put it somewhere highly visible today!


Nikki said...

Thank you for being honest. What is it about boys? My son drives me nuts sometimes, and his sister almost never does. Patience. I pray for that quite often, too.

Cheryl said...

This is one area I need a lot of work in too! I really run out of patience quickly!!! Thanks for sharing!

Crystal said...

This is one thing I am good at.......I have alot of patience when it comes to kids, without it I would have never been able to do home daycare for 3 years! ha

MissSonya said...

yeah i struggle with it too. I find myself wishing they would just do it my way as it seems faster etc. The truth is I usually see that their way wasn't all that bad!

Unknown said...

People used to tell me how I had so much, I mean how can you thread a loom without it. Now they don't see how I can handquilt without it and the truth is it is not patience that I have to handquilt or weave but it is the sanity that I sort of maintain by doing them.

New things to test my patience that my 3 are doing..biting (nearly 5 year old!) saying "I hate you", climbing on furniture like junglegyms, running through snow piles and then complaining when their feet are wet just some from today. they are pushing their nearly 8 month prego mom to want to rock in the corner!

Char said...

Patience is a virtue. I guess. ha!
When I was younger I had a lot of patience.
When my boys were younger I had a huge amount of patience. Now, not so much. I am patient about some things, but very impatient about others.
I am also impatient about life. I want to go to DISNEY NOW or travel out west NOW. I don't want to wait for the right time. I think that comes from my kids growing up and I am realizing that they won't be here forever. I want to do things with them while they are still young and while they are at home with us. I see time slipping away and so it makes me impatient with time.
Hang in there! I know that as we turn into parents we have to let go of some of the things that make us happy in order to care for and nurture our children. Parents have to all the sudden become unselfish as soon as a baby is born. It becomes more (sometimes ALL) about them and less about us.
Laugh in the face of adversity! I like that quote. Sometimes you just have to laugh at situations. Enjoy your time with your babies because they grow up so fast. Your time will be yours soon enough. The boys won't be little forever and they'll need you less and less each year. You might not see it now, but soon they will be more independent and not try your patience so much. When you are able to quit your job it'll help a little to I bet because you'll be able to establish some sort of routine to follow that the boys will "look forward to" each day.
Things seem to never go the way they are supposed to or the way they are planned to go. I think I tend to overthink things and figure out all the possible things that could go wrong with my plans. haha! But that's a whole other problem for another day and subject!
Have patience!