Has it really only been a little more than 3 weeks since I embarked on this new adventure? It feels like a lot longer than that! Some days have been really easy. A few lately have made me want to fall back into my former bad habits.
The thing that I think is different this time is that I am very (very) aware of what I am putting into my body. Everything I eat is a very conscious decision made by me. There has not been any mindless eating. When I have overdone it, I knew I had.
Another thing that is different this time is my mental attitude. I over did it. So what? I'm human. I've only been doing this for 3 weeks. I did not ruin all my progress on one or two episodes of overeating. I have not undone the exercise that I have recently started. Tomorrow is a new day. God's grace is new every day. If God can do that for me, shouldn't I extend that grace to myself?
I have made progress on the scale. I am trying not to let that be my motivating factor, but some days that is the only reason I get out of bed...well, that and the three kids screaming for their breakfast.
I am trying not to weigh myself until Feb. 2. That will be one month on this new "not dieting" thing. It will be my next update on the right hand side of my blog. I have not weighed myself since last Thursday. This is really hard for me. I would eventually like to get to the point that I only weigh myself once a month, but as of now that seems entirely impossible.
I have also noticed that there are a lot of opportunities to eat when I am not really hungry. Just because someone else has a snack does not mean that I need one. Just because the ice cream is staring at me in the freezer does not mean I need to eat it. I have had an amazing thing happen recently. About a week (2 weeks ago?) I opened a pint of Ben and Jerry's. I ate a little less than a 1/4th of it and put it away. It has remained untouched in the freezer since then. That in itself is a miracle. In the past, I would eat an entire pint in one sitting. I'm not sure what the difference is this time. It's definitely a God thing. Normally, even talking about the Ben and Jerry's like this would have me getting up from the computer and grabbing the ice cream and a spoon and coming back to type the rest of the post. I honestly don't even have the desire. Amazing.
I have started reading some more in the "Lose it for Life" book. The part that I am reading now is talking about the quality of the food we put in our body. The last part I read was about all of the physical problems caused by obesity. There are many more than I realized.
I have eaten out about 4-5 times in the past week. That is very unusual for us. However with all the "strange things (are) happening" (anyone know the movie that song is from?) around here, I have eaten out more. The difference now is that I never leave stuffed and feeling miserable. I've had a Big Mac, Steak, loaded mashed potatoes, bread rolls, onion petals, and chai tea among other things. On any other "diet" I've been on, most of those would have been huge NO NO!s. I can't express enough the freedom of "Lose it for Life".
I have started walking on the treadmill 3 days a week. Usually I only walk a mile. I do it while the boys are awake, which has proved to be a challenge at times. However at this point in my life I am not committed enough to get up at 5 am in order to walk before they wake.
The first mile I walked took me 26 min. The other day I walked a mile in 18 min. and 44 seconds. I have no doubt after the weight loss of the first week or so that I would continue to lose weight without exercise. This is just my attempt to speed things up and get a little more toned along the way.