Tuesday, October 09, 2007

Radom Stuff

My baby counted to 10 yesterday by himself! This morning he crawled out of his crib by himself!

I am still feeling very overwhelmed in general. My babysitter is leaving us in January. I don't blame him at all, and I am very grateful that both my aunt and uncle have watched the boys for the past almost 4 years. I'm just not sure who we are going to get to watch them or where we will have to take them. It makes me sick to think about it. We have always had family watch them.

I just feel like I'm in a funk right now. I'm not happy with our finances and I hate that I helped get us where we are. I want to stay home with the boys and can't afford to right now. I'm sure there are still some feelings about my grandma dying so suddenly. My house stinks. I really want to clean it, but never seem to get caught up just on the day to day stuff. I am really behind at work. The girl I share an office with got fired today. My friend Patty's mom died this past weekend and I found out about it today. Just a lot of junk. Not much that is earth shattering, but all together it's got me down. I know the things I need to do, it's just hard to do them.


Unknown said...

Sorry your world seems so crappy. things will look up, the light always seems to find its way in. If only to give you a little smile my baby has been proficient at climbing out of his crib for nearly a month...which means that we are looking at twin beds for Steven & Jakob so he can have one of the toddler beds, plus Steven is nearly too long for a crib mattress..

Things will look up, soon we will have a girls day and that will at least put us into a good chocolate stupor....I am sending you lots of hugs and prayers.

SamandSawyersMom said...

wow the babysitter thing would do it for me alone. Oh gosh Lura. I am worried about that too. Please be so careful!!! I know you will be.

I will pray for you. Just take a deep breath and eat something salty.

Char said...

Good job Isaiah!! Well, maybe not on the crib crawling thing. hehe
Hang in there Lura Bura!!! Love ya! :)
That's too bad about your co-worker.

Crystal said...

Good job Zay!!!

Girl, I have been feeling the exact same way the past few weeks! I am just now feeling a bit better. When we feel like that everything suffers, our relationships, our houses and it makes it worse. I will pray for you girlie, hang in there and things will look up soon. Love ya!

Cheryl said...

Yeah Z counted to 10, very good for him.

Hang in there! We all have times like that, it gets better and it all works out. You are in my thoughts and prayers everyday. Let me know if there is someway I can help.

Chocolate, long hot bath and some smelly candles will make the worlds look a little brighter.

Patty is still in my prayers daily.

SamandSawyersMom said...

I have been thinking about the child care thing since last night and thought I would give you my ideas. Probably all things you have thought of...but... it makes me feel better.

One is that since Tim gets home so early, could you go in when he comes home and work later? Or could he get home one hour earlier?

Are you able to work weekends to make up hours? Can Tim? Could he go on 3rd shift? Can you possibly watch one or 2 children for a hundred bucks each instead of working? Is there a daycare center right by your work if you HAVE to do that and you could check on themat lunch? Can you find a daycare with a video monitor all day so you can check the internet?

My favorite idea is for you to think really hard about any older retired people in your life...maybe church that you could approach and tell them how scared you are and that you would love to pay them a small amount to watch your children just 2 days a week...etc. Maybe a retired pastor's wife, a friend of your mom's? I honestly tried to figure a way for me to drive up twice a week but I couldn't because of my job....I would have to get rid of the paying families. I will keep thinking.
Oh, is there someone at your work that might be able to work opposite days as you and you could switch off watching each other's kids?

Unknown said...

Sonya those are fantastic ideas! Lura is lucky to have you as such a good friend. I think we all can brainstorm some, though you may have hit on most of the great ones.

Kacie said...

That's a lot going on! I think it's pretty normal to fall into a funk. Just remember that it won't always be like this. It really will get better--and God will never give you more than you can handle. Hang in there!

Jamie said...

Wow, that is a lot on your plate. I hope you can find some peace in all that turmoil. I think Sonya had some terrific ideas. She's great with ideas!! We'll pray for you. Please vent whenever you need to, we're here for ya!!!

SamandSawyersMom said...

she is lucky, I agree

kellerie said...

oh, lura, i feel you! just hang in there, it will get better eventually.

you could always get a job in norwalk, and then the boys could hang out with tanis and the triplets all day :)

Lura said...

Thanks everyone for your thoughts, ideas and prayers! I really do appreciate it.